It Feels Different this Year
As I’m sitting here in shorts and a t-shirt, it’s really hard to believe that it’s December!! It feels a lot more like August! And besides the fact that I have my tree up, it really doesn't feel like Christmas is right around the corner.
I absolutely love Christmas, and from the first day of December, I’m usually filled with excitement for the season! But this year, instead of feeling joyful, I find myself feeling a little bit depressed.
This Christmas will be a little different. There will be absolutely no chance of snow on Christmas Eve, no hopes of waking up to a snow covered ground on Christmas Day. There will be no big family gatherings to attend, no loading up the car to spend the day at grandma and grandpa's. There will be no snuggles from my nieces and nephews as we all gather to read the Christmas story and no annual pictures of all the cousins in matching pj's. As I sit here listening to Michael BublĂ© singing Let it Snow and I’ll be Home for Christmas (not sure why I'm torturing myself!), I can’t help but tear up a bit.
But as I sit here pining for Christmas’ past, I hear God asking me “Am I enough?" When you strip away everything else about Christmas, "Am I enough?” Wow! That really hit me! I’ve known the truth about Christmas since I could walk but it’s all too easy for that truth to get pushed under the tree and become just a small part of the season. Yes, all the family gatherings, lights, trees and presents are nice and are something to be cherished, but God’s reminding me this year that none of those are what Christmas is truly about! My joy for the season should be found in the baby lying in the manger and nothing else! My main focus should be the birth of a baby, a baby born to set us free and give us eternal life!
So while Christmas does feel very different this year, and while I will still dearly miss spending it with our families, I'm praising God for the reminder that the greatest thing about Christmas will never change no matter where I am! My joy is dependent not on worldly gifts but on the greatest gift of all - Jesus!
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